saw 3

it comes out on tuesday- you have to watch it- all of you. it is even better than the first two. fucking rocks!!

Darling, I forgive you after all anything is better than to be alone

i thought about getting back into contact with my ex the other day- but, even drunk, i knew it was a bad idea...

the way that i left things were just so PERFECT-

"because i have spent the last year in misery waiting for you, and you have been out fucking dating!!!!

*click*

i hung up on her...

well, there were the emails we exchanged after that, but they do not count.

that is the last time we talked person to person... on the phone, or f2f.

so i am not going to fuck it up by contacting her now. fuck that.

the following is a song called 'lithium' which i have renamed 'alcohol' based on my preferance

every mention of alcohol, is a mention of 'lithium' in the actual song. it is by evanescence.


alcohol- don't want to lock me up inside
alcohol- don't want to forget how it feels without
alcohol- I want to stay in love with my sorrow
oh but God I want to let it go

come to bed, don't make me sleep alone
couldn't hide the emptiness you let it show
never wanted it to be so cold
just didn't drink enough to say you love me

I can't hold on to me
wonder what's wrong with me

alcohol- don't want to lock me up inside
alcohol- don't want to forget how it feels without
alcohol- I want to stay in love with my sorrow

Don't want to let it lay me down this time
drown my will to fly
here in the darkness I know myself
can't break free until I let it go
let me go

Darling, I forgive you after all
anything is better than to be alone
and in the end I guess I had to fall
always find my place among the ashes

I can't hold on to me
wonder what's wrong with me

alcohol- don't want to lock me up inside
alcohol- don't want to forget how it feels without
alcohol- stay in love with you
oh I'm gonna let it go
---------------------------------------------------
"the best part is where she says "darling i forgive you after all. anything is better than to be alone"

it has been a long, sad holiday, but at least it is over now.

new 'happy to be home' to come... hopefully soon