another day in my world
decisions, decisions...
as i said before, i have only recently been in contact with my ex again- and when i was talking to her on the phone tuesday evening, she asked me that fateful question which i knew was coming-
"do you think we could give it another shot? pick up where we left off, only this time, minus the husband?"
i said i think we could... i know she loves me, as i think i do in return, but i am not exactly certain if it is something i should try to reconcile... it was mostly good while we were together, and what bad there was, was caused by the fact that she was married so we could not spend as much time together as i had hoped... and somewhere towards the middle of the relatonship, i had a sudden change of concience- and did not want to be responsible for destroying a family. my favorite song at that time said, "a catch in my throat- choke- torn into pieces. i won't. no. i don't want to be this..."
however, durring the time we spent together, i realized something- it was right around the time i watched saw- the first one- "those who do not appreciate the life they have been given, do not deserve it."
no, i was not going to kill him, just no longer have sudden calls of concience for what was being done to a selfish, abusive asshole.
and still she and i broke up. i ended it, because she was having a hard enough time without being forced to deal with me as well, always irritated because we never spend any time together...
more than a year later, here we are again. not even friends yet, having only been through the first meeting- and it will soon be time to make a decision, do i want her back as my girlfriend, or just to sleep with...
this is why i have not been around lately... i have been racking my brain trying to figure out what i should do...
this is what i have come up with so far:
final semation?
none.
as i said before, i have only recently been in contact with my ex again- and when i was talking to her on the phone tuesday evening, she asked me that fateful question which i knew was coming-
"do you think we could give it another shot? pick up where we left off, only this time, minus the husband?"
i said i think we could... i know she loves me, as i think i do in return, but i am not exactly certain if it is something i should try to reconcile... it was mostly good while we were together, and what bad there was, was caused by the fact that she was married so we could not spend as much time together as i had hoped... and somewhere towards the middle of the relatonship, i had a sudden change of concience- and did not want to be responsible for destroying a family. my favorite song at that time said, "a catch in my throat- choke- torn into pieces. i won't. no. i don't want to be this..."
however, durring the time we spent together, i realized something- it was right around the time i watched saw- the first one- "those who do not appreciate the life they have been given, do not deserve it."
no, i was not going to kill him, just no longer have sudden calls of concience for what was being done to a selfish, abusive asshole.
and still she and i broke up. i ended it, because she was having a hard enough time without being forced to deal with me as well, always irritated because we never spend any time together...
more than a year later, here we are again. not even friends yet, having only been through the first meeting- and it will soon be time to make a decision, do i want her back as my girlfriend, or just to sleep with...
this is why i have not been around lately... i have been racking my brain trying to figure out what i should do...
this is what i have come up with so far:
final semation?
none.
posted by zero at 3:43 AM
3 Comments:
Just see where it leads...(sex! sex! sex!) LOL!
Regarding the fucktard... he has blocked me from his site, I can't tell 'em anymore. I already sent in an email request for Sooner to leave him a nasty gram, but if you have any repressed anger you want to get rid of, I updated the post where it says click here in pink will go to his website and you can leave your 2 cents. He will delete your comment, but you can always copy/paste it back under my comments for fun!!! Jackiesue already attacked him tonight, but I'm sure he deleted that already too.
I can sit here and tell you a million things that you already played and re played in your head.
but all I'm going to say is to give it a shot, if it fails well at least you don't have to wonder anymore.
nothing ventured.........nothing gained...
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