ok... i may be back again... i hope.

i am having a lot of puter problems... i have no idea what it is... all i know is it is not me.

for almost a week, after work, i have been sitting at this computer for hours, running various programs that i think may fix it... it just pretty much works when it wants to.

i have run anti-virus, anti spyware, memory defrag, ram recover, memory compression, and various others.

i have dumped thousands of junk files, and recovered nearly a gig of memory... i don't know...

AMY NEWS- well, there is no news, really... we email back and forth when we can, but this computer is really making it difficult. all i know is she doesn't hate me. which is good. and i know she still thinks of me when 'broken' comes on the radio... (that is a song i once told her was my song to her, and it was done by a band that i introduced her to...)

i am just surprised she didn't know how i felt about her... the lyrics pretty much say it...

"I wanted you to know that I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

because i'm broken, when i'm open and i don't feel like i am strong enough.
Because I'm broken, when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

The worst is over now, and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain


Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away


Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away"

it is amazing that she didn't know... well, i will keep you all posted on the new developments as they happen... but for now, i am exausted and i must go to bed...

btw, i will not be around on tuesday- it is my birthday again, so i am not leaving my bed...

damn, didn't i just have a birthday last year?