a day off... finally!!

it has actually not been that long, but it feels like it. well, it is not actually going to be a day off... i have to put a fence in my back yard for the mom... she is paying me, so i might as well do it since i can not afford to pay all of my bills yet... well, i can, and i do, but i am just broke for the next two weeks after i do.

i think that if one more person tells me to have a 'blessed day,' i am going to go ape shit... one of the problems with working at an 'urban store' which is what my store is concidered because of the location and the clientel, is that so many of the people are soooo religious it kind of makes me nausious... now, i have no problem with religion. i do not care what religion people are, as long as they do not shove it down my throat. i do not walk around saying 'hail satan' after all... (do not believe in satan, but that would be a fitting payback, i think)

other than that, there is not too much going on... i am ten days into 2 weeks sober, just to prove to myself i can do it... well, not JUST so i can prove it to myself... i am also broke... and i need to cut down on my tolerance a bit- the last 2 times i drank, i ended up drinking an entire fifth. that is an entire fifth of yukon jack- which is 100 proof canadian whiskey... and that is just unacceptable to me.

i will leave you with a quote from one of the movies i rented... 'the visitation'... this is the reason i rented this movie... it is intense.

"i was twelve years old, nailed to a fence!! what choices did i have?

you knew! everyone knew! but you all just turned a blind eye...
you all abandoned me...GOD ABANDONED ME!!"